My birthday!! :D

Today is my birthday! Yay :D One year older, how does it feel? It's not a big difference. Without telling my age, I must say I am not a teenager anymore; I'm a young adult instead. And no, I didn't turn 18, I'm older than that!

I came home from a tennis camp yesterday. It was an amazing weekend! The company was great :) I played in a group of 8 players including me. I've played for 9 years, but I still have some things to develop; I was there to get some feedback and to become a better player. There was an old coach who joked about almost everything and some of the jokes were in fact funny, after becoming used to his humor. He had been a tennis coach for 40 years, so I trusted him.

We played 10 hours tennis during 42 hours ( = under two days). It was tough workout, but I loved it anyway. I couldn't push myself to 100% the last day, 'cause my ankles ached at every footstep at the last two hours' training. So I had to interrupt the exercise. I was disappointed with my bodys' reaction, but I kept telling myself that this was something I couldn't do anything about. Only take a few days of rest. Luckily this happened on the last day and not in the beginning of the tennis camp :)

Besides the ankles my body is sore. Stretching doesn't help much. Today I'm not gonna celebrate myself in a wild way, I'll do it in near future with my friends, but today I'm surrounded by family :)


PS: I tested a new drink two nights ago. Well, it's only new for me. It's "Blue Angel", and it's good ;)


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Day 15: Write about your biggest fears

My biggest fears are many, but the most horrible thing would be that someone I love dies. Of course everyone dies eventually, but if the person dies because of an accident or in young age it would be so hard for the ones that stand close to the victim. To lose someone important; it would crush me totally.

Because of my (former) eating problems and my healthy targets in life, I still get some thoughts about illnesses I could somehow get in the future, if I'm not taking care of myself. For example I've had fears of getting diabetes type 2, sometimes I still think about it. But I'm putting the thoughts away, I can't fall for the same mistakes again.

A very common fear I have is the fear of heights. I must confess, I haven't been up in the Eiffel tower, in Paris, but I've stood next to it, at the ground.

I'm scared of dying young; not getting the chance to fall in love and start a family, to grow old with someone and so on.

I'm afraid of having chronic pain and how it would affect my life.

Well, there you go. I'm scared of many things, mostly about stuff that happens in the future, things I can't do much about. I think this is common; being afraid about stuff you can't change because they haven't even happened yet.

Driving, Diary and Dondition - No, I mean Condition! ;)

Today I've been driving in the traffic with my teacher. It was my fourth time sitting in front of the steering wheel. I felt very nervous before the lesson, 'cause I haven't been driving since last week of December. But it went very well, yay! :D I was totally focused on driving and had no time making eye contact with the teacher (the last mentioned was unusual). I'll have my next lesson in two days.

I'm impressed that I've been writing my (dear) diary almost every day since New Years Eve. How have I found the time to write every night? I don't know. Probably I've just got less time to sleep, hehe :) One of my very best friends writes every night in her diary and she's been doing it for years! Cool huh? I've wondered how she can manage to do it, but I think it becomes a routine after a while. A routine that would be a disappointment to break. The advantage comes later; it's nice to check what happened at which time of the life. For example if there's been trouble at some point, it can be easy to solve it if I've been writing down my thoughts.

Mentally I've felt well lately, physically not really. I've had the weird pain in my stomach and back brief moments at least twice a week. I've been so desperate, that I've borrowed a book about chronic pain. I don't know if I'm gonna read it, but let's see. Painkillers don't seem to help, neither doctors; they don't know what's wrong with me. Frustrating! :( My condition seems to be great, but it feels not like that. Maybe it's just my stupid way of reacting on stress; I stress about stuff and about having pain and the result is that I get more pain. It's complicated, I don't know what to believe...

I've finally learned to properly post a Youtube video here! My friend showed me that, thanks :)
Here's a great song that I love, it's groovy and the lyrics has a message. It's the "one life" that means so much to me too :)

A new year has begun

 It's been some time since I last wrote, but I really needed some time off from writing and just get the Christmas feeling together with them I love. I've been spending the holiday at home with family and friends. Monday 31th December, New Years Eve, I partied together with my family (except for my big brother), Hanna nr. 2 and a guy named J. and his parents. It wasn't a big party or a "drinking party" but I enjoyed myself anyway. Hanna stayed over the night and we didn't go to sleep until 4.27 a.m.

I've had plenty of time to play recorder. Did I tell you that I performed with my big brother at one of my graduation parties? :)

Christmas did also go well. I got a few presents, but I get the best feeling of giving away presents. Seeing the (hopefully glad) persons open them and their faces lit up. When I was young I didn't realize it, but now I do. Christmas is better than birthdays, 'cause now everyone who's in the same room get to open presents at the same time.

Some of the flowers I got at my graduation.

 This week I've finally got some work again. I've been searching a long time for short part time jobs at kindergartens. So guess if I was happy to get work for two days this week? Yes. Even though it was tough taking care of children, I want more experience.

In a few days my family's Christmas holiday ends and they will go back to school and work. I'm going to study some psychology, hopefully work and learn how to drive a car. On the weekend me and Hanna nr. 2 will leave to another city to meet our friend S. for two days. Hopefully it'll be fun! I've never been there, so I'm a little excited. Only one week to go! :)

By the way, the photos are taken a month ago by myself. A little random pics but it doesn't matter :)